Home Alone - Roxanne
Aug. 6th, 2006
09:11 pm - Home Alone
My daughter was whisked away by my parents this afternoon after we had STUFFED ourselves at Red Lobster. She's doing fine. I'm...alone. I went through Riley's clothes to weed some out. Then, I went through mine. Since I have lost roughly 30 pounds and recently spent WAY WAY WAY too much money on new clothes ( I heart Coldwater Creek), I figured I needed to move the clothes that are too big out of the way. That was hard since I didn't have any friends here to say yes, no, heck no - and what were you thinking. But I think I ddi a good job and now need to offer my mom her clothes back and get rid of the others. I WILL lose the next 20 pounds I have left. 10 by Oct. I've been at a stupid plateau for six months and it's driving me nuts. However, I am starting to go to yoga at least twwice a week and will endevour to go three times a week.
I want to be healthy and look good before I have a nother baby. Of couse, here's to hoping we can afford the day care for another child.
The hard part of purging my clothes was three fold - I feel guilty for the new clothes and after pigging out at lunch, I felt like I didn't look good in any of them; some of the clothes were nice silk or I put a lot of money into altering last year before I decided to lose weight or were given to me by my mom; and I didn't have any tv or music on - so it was me and my thoughts.
I feel like I want to move in many directions but I also just want to curl up and sleep.
I have two days without Riley, but I have to go back to work after a week off. I don't wanna go and I don't know if that's because it sucks to go back after any break or it's the bad vibes at my work place.
I think I will go to bed early tonight and think about things tomorrow.